Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2012 6:19 pm Post subject: So lonely right now!
As you know Adams grandma died over xmas and I have to go back for her funeral. Because of costs we decided I should fly and Indi stay behind with friends. Ive just dropped her off and cried the entire way there and the entire way home!!! Ive come in and the house is so empty without her to bounce about and greet me. To lie at my feet and to lick me head to toe with her big wet labbie licks. So this is what it is like to live without a dog! I know now I could never live without a dog because the last 20 mins of being home have been torture!!!! I hate the silence and the missing presence that a dog brings. Its awful. Ive only ever left her for 3 days to go back to England and swore I would never do it again. I know Im going to have to get use to it as she`ll have to go to friends when we go to New York. I just hate leaving her and feel like such a bad mummy!!! Sat here in floods of tears! Ive still got to pack my suitcase and try and get an early night but how can i do that when my babba girl is elsewhere!
{{{{{hugs}}}}} you must be feeling pretty low due to the funeral anyway so try not to worry too much about the trip to New York, just get this one over with. We'll all be thinking of you x
Labs certainly fill a house, it must seem very empty right now. It's never easy facing the prospect of a funeral anyway and that won't be helping. Hopefully the time will just fly by and before you know it you will be back together again.
Hugs it is so hard whenever they aren't there you have this idea that you will get things you meant to get round to done and then you find that you still spend all your time thinking about them I feel like the place is empty and find myself going to look for him when I know perfectly rationally he's on holiday with my Mum and Dad or out for the day with them, I clearly spend far too much time with him normally he's my shadow so yeah I know it feels really odd but you're not a bad mummy at all and I bet she's having a great time and is being well looked after. Be kind to yourself you've had a hard time lately. Take care.
Things are very hard on you at the moment but she will be fine. Just imagine the greeting you will get when you fetch her - That thought must stay with you.
I often think that people without dogs in their life are really missing out on a lot of emotion and many other things.
I hope the funeral goes as well as it can.
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From Christine, Millie, Cassie and Lexi.
Never forgetting Carly and Abbie
Well my friend text to say she is having a wail of a time. The kids are a bit afraid because of her size but are wanting to stroke her and fuss her but just a bit cautious! She has been a bit bouncy and i think it will take my friends a while to get to grips with that but then Gaji is such a placid dog and indi in comparison is a hyperactive puppy dog!!! Ive managed to get a few bits done but like paws said i spent the entire time thinking about her. I hear little noises in the house and what I would put down to indi's attempt to be part of the olympic gymnastic somersault team or the worlds loudest snorer/barker, is now freaking me out that I cant sleep.The one night i get into bed at 9pm to get a good 12 hours and I cant sleep!!!! Great!!!! So im going round the house with a massive bunch of keys and locked myself in my bedroom with several phones hidden. Extreme I know for the area I live in is one of the safest around etc but still as rubbish a guard dog as Indi is (i love her despite this) having her downstairs and even in her crate where she wouldnt be able to do something makes me feel safe and now I dont!!! I miss her terribly but like you said she is having a great time and barely missing me! As Christine said im looking forward to sunday when I can go and pick her up and spoil her rotten again and never let her out of my sight. Ive even contemplated bringing my gymnastic hopeful up to bed with i think i need the company upstairs for a while once im home again!
The Army life can be a hard one, especially when conflicts are involved. I guess you just have to toughen up a bit and get used to it. It's not an easy world to be involved with
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I feel like the place is empty and find myself going to look for him when I know perfectly rationally he's on holiday with my Mum and Dad or out for the day with them, I clearly spend far too much time with him normally he's my shadow so yeah I know it feels really odd but you're not a bad mummy at all and I bet she's having a great time and is being well looked after. Be kind to yourself you've had a hard time lately. Take care.
