Posted: Fri Dec 03, 2010 1:19 pm Post subject: My pup has gone to the bridge I feel numb.....
I am still in shock, I feel like I am going to wake up from a horrible nightmare.
My baby boy Finn cried out in his sleep at 6.30am, a long howl, so I went down to him. When I went in the kitchen he didn't wake up and I thought to myself, he must be in a really deep sleep. Then he made some strange gasping noises and I realised, he was dead. He was my soul dog - 8 months old I felt such a connection with him. I feel awful that I posted on here a few days ago that I was getting cross with him as he was fearful of people with hats outside of the house.
I feel like I am going to be sick - I can hear my heartbeat inside my head. Why has my beautiful baby boy been taken from me at only 8 months old.
Husband has taken him to the vets - I don't know why but I feel I want to know why this has happened. They have done some initial tests. Apparently inside he looked perfect, stomach was clear, nothing stuck, lodged, no twisted gut, liver fine, kidneys fine. The vet suspects that it was a stroke or a heart attack due to the fact that he has literally died with no apparent cause. Apparently it would be quite costly for us to pursue the exact diagnosis with a full blown pathologists examination. She said that he wouldn't have felt a thing, and all he would have known was what a fabulous day he had yesterday. He went out for a lovely walk - out for about an hour, frollicking in the snowy fields with Sky my other lab - tried to nibble some horse poo, got home, nibbled a cheeky bit of chicken poo, ate his tea and cuddled up on the sofa with his favouritest person in the whole wide world me. Then went to bed and went to sleep forever.
Part of me is starting to feel angry - cheated that my baby boy has been taken from me soooo young. I have lived and breathed this pup for 6 months to mould him into the wonderful dog he was yesterday. He was the bestest boy ever and nobody could ever replace him - I love you Finn - always always in my heart - run free at rainbow bridge and wait for mommy........
I don't know what else to say........ I feel like my heart is broken
I am so so sorry to read this. It has brought a tear to my eye. I can only imagine the shock and the pain of not knowing how it happened. He was so young. I really hope that the fact that he is not thought to have suffered any pain brings you some comfort.
I am so very sorry to read this. My thoughts and prayers are with you, your husband and Sky, I can only imagine how you must be feeling. He was so young and it is so unfair. I'm glad you got to have such a wonderful day with him yesterday and hope it comforts you that Finn's last memory was such a lovely one.
Take care
Oh my... how awful! I also have tears in my eyes! Im so so sorry to read this post!
Im shocked and cant image how you feel. I dread the day when Winston goes to the bridge but I hope it wont be for many years! When hes had a life time of happy walks etc!
Hugs for you at this awful time.... take one day at a time. Thinking of you!
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