The photos are lovely, you did her proud!!!
One day you will see her again, I truly beleive that and maybe she is being looked after by someone you know in spirit!!
Love and prayers to you all xxxx
it was so hard doing that, looking at all the pics i have of her remembering things we done, choosing music to go with it, even though for some reason the sound wont work on it! i`ve still got a pack of crab sticks in my fridge that i bought 3 days before she went to rainbow bridge.
i like to think i gave her a nice life but when i was washing the pots today i suddenly thought how cruel of me it was not to risk her having the tests done to find out what was wrong with her. she`d never bitten before as far as i was aware and i had no proof that she would bite again.
i`m feeling really bad, do you know when you have done something really bad and you know that you are going to get into alot of trouble for it? that`s how i`m feeling at the moment.
bonnie wasn`t just a pet, she was my pet, i treated her like a child. i used to kiss her on her mouth, we used to dance, she slept in my bed next to me or at the bottom of my bed under the quilt, she`d lick my daughters wounds when she fell over, she licked my feet (she was a very brave dog!)
she suffered for all those years and she finally started being happy and feeling secure and i took that away from her.
Don't feel so guilty - I truly believe you made the right decison for Bonnie by not letting her undergo loads of tests when the vet was quite sure of the outcome. I have read on here before "better a day too soon than a day too late" and that is so true - Bonnie didn't go to the bridge after days and days in a strange place having strange tests done. Don't feel bad - you did the right thing.
I think you did the right thing too, it sounds as though Bonnie was in a lot of pain, possibly a tumour no one will know but as her demeanour changed so drastically in a short space of time it seems unlikely to me that much could have been done to help, vets don`t suggest euthanasia unless they feel they can`t do anything for an animal.
You feel sad, angry and you blame yourself, these are all parts of losing a much loved pet, this is the hardest decision we have to make for them and yet we carry on having them and loving them
You are not wrong to feel the way you atm, nor are you wrong for saying you won`t have another dog, but in the future you may feel ready for another, s/he won`t be a replacement for Bonnie but another character in its own right.
thank you, everyones words mean so much, they really do. i just hate myself so much right now for making that choice.
i`m one of those people who love animals so much, i would glady build a massive sancurary if i won the lottery instead of thinking about stuff i need.
sending bonnie to the bridge has been one of the hardest things i`ve ever done. people say that i have memories and that i saved her from what she was going through, but atm that isn`t enough, i want to hold her tight and never let go. in my mind i am the bad one for choosing to end her life, i gave up on her and i feel so bad for that.
i might just be lashing out at everyone, but i am so glad that certain rescue centers found me unsuitable to adopt one of their dogs because otherwise i would not have spent the time i did with bonnie. i just hope that one day they will realise that just because i don`t have loads of money doesn`t mean i don`t have loads of love to give.
the thing that realli hurts is that bonnie was a kind natured girl, as far as i know she has never hurt anyone in her life (exept flies that she used to love catching) and to see her that way and to have her pts because of that when she seemed so happy on her walk it`s all just so confusing.
i`m sorry to keep going on about it, i just can`t get my head around it, i trusted bonnie so much. there is no way she would have meant to bite my partner out of nastyness, there definately must have been something underlining going on.
i miss her so much and just wish i could spend another night with her.
xx
I'm so sorry to hear about how you are feeling, it must be so very hard. I completely understand how difficult it is, my Sammie was PTS only last month from a brain tumour. People can say to you that you did the best thing and to remember the good times and memories etc., but it dosen't help really as all you want to do is have your beloved dog back and hold them close forever. There is such a massive void left behind and all you want is your precious dog back again.
Please don't beat yourself up about this, you in no way gave up on your lovely Bonnie, in fact you saved her and she is now her normal happy self.
Hope you like this poem.
HER JOURNEYS JUST BEGAN
**********************
DONT THINK OF HER AS GONE AWAY
HER JOURNEYS JUST BEGAN
LIFE HOLDS SO MANY FACETS
THIS EARTH IS ONLY ONE
*****
JUST THINK OF HER AS RESTING
FROM THE SORROWS AND THE TEARS
IN A PLACE OF WARMTH AND COMFORT
WHERE THERE ARE NO DAYS OR YEARS
*****
THINK HOW SHE MUST BE WISHING
THAT WE COULD KNOW TODAY
HOW NOTHING BUT OUR SADNESS
CAN REALLY PASS AWAY
*****
AND THINK OF HER AS LIVING
IN THE HEARTS OF THOSE SHE TOUCHED
FOR NOTHING LOVED IS EVER LOST
AND SHE WAS LOVED SO VERY MUCH
I know its easy for us to say remember Bonnie as she was prior to when she changed and I know that will be very hard to do at the moment, most of us have had to make that decision that is oh so hard and we do whats best for our furbabies.
What I mean is (sorry not good with words) that one day you`ll find yourself smiling at some antic Bonnie used to get up to, the pain of losing a pet never goes away but it does get easier, she will always have a place in your heart, I think we keep a piece of every pet fur or feathered with us all our lives, their memory isn`t in any way lessened by having another furbaby
nikki that poem is really nice. and i am so sorry to hear about sammie. my thoughts are with you.
mary i am already thinking about the funny stuff bonnie used to do like when she broke wind she`d sniff her bum then look around to see if anyone had noticed! and the way her bum wagged when she wagged her tail!
we went out in the car before and i thought to myself that bonnie can come everywhere with us now.
i have been asked to work with dogs today, my mum has a friend who runs greyhound kennels where we got robbie from and i think that maybe that will be a good thing because i`ve always wanted to work with animals and it will get me out of the house because atm i feel suffocated in the house. plus i think that i can help the dogs by taking for a walk and spending some time with them so they are not stuck in a kennel all the time.
it`s hard to beleive that it`s been 7 days now since we had our last walk with bonnie and i`m so glad that it was as nice as it was.
xxx
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